Father's Day

My dad has been gone for over 10 years. Some years I can breeze through Father's Day and be ok, other not. This year, God has been dealing with me in certain areas, and grieving and letting go is one of them. I needed to grieve and let go of my dad, as well as the two babies that I miscarried. Well ironically enough, today's message at church was "The Turning Point", scripture reference Deuteronomy 1:5-13. Pastor Johnson preached about being in a place for so long that you become that place (spiritually, emotionally, physically) and that its time to turn from that place and take your journey.
So God spoke to me today and showed me that:

1. If I stop grieving my father, I will not be "leaving him" or forgetting about him but I will be freeing myself to begin to celebrate him and the relationship that I had with him.
2. I have a father in heaven who will not leave or forsake me.
3. My babies are with God and when I get there, they will be there waiting for me and will know who I am.
4. Both my earthly father and my father in heaven are happy and rejoicing that I am beginning to take my journey.

Needless to say, today was a weepy day but I am ready to turn from this mountain of grief and take my journey. As long as I listen to the small still voice inside of me, I will be ok.

Happy Fathers Day Daddy and Abba!