What's Been Going On!

1. Officially moved to South Carolina
2. Officially started looking for a house
3. Have found a house
4. Moving on November 1
5. Started a new PERMANENT job at US Food as a project manager
6. Started seriously trying to lose weight (6.5 lbs so far)
7. Shocked and amazed at the move of God in my life and the lives of others!
8. Excited because my cousin has a new man who makes her extremely happy and in spite of the insanity that's going on in her life right now, he seems to have her grounded (yeah for him!)
9. My mother is doing EXTREMELY well with her chemo treatments - the spot on her liver is shrinking and her weight is holding steady
10. My sister has purchased a home, its fabulous!
11. My mother is turning 73 in 4 days.
    

Its the Little Things that Make it Permanent

Ok so I'm officially relocation to SC (that's a whole blog unto itself) but I've been having fits of anxiety this week about what should be a relatively MINOR thing.... RELINQUISHING MY NY DRIVERS LICENSE!!! Yes, I need to switch my insurance, get new place and let my beloved license go. So of all the things that I have done to make this a permanent move, this move right here, is making me ill. The "smiling faces beautiful places" slogan on the license, the weird state logo (which only my cousin would agree looks like a logo for some weird religion - sun and moon), the many colors that I can get plates in, ALL ARE FREAKING ME OUT!! I feel so cool when travelling through the airport and when I flash my ID, people say "a new yorker huh". Will I be so cool with my SC ID (what will they say "a palmetter stater huh"!). No one gives a heck about people from SC outside of thinking that you have peaches and sweet tea rolling out your ears, you drink mint julips for breakfast and secretly have a confederate flag as a comforter!. Maybe I'll hold on to my NY ID until it expires. I'm just not ready to commit on that level!!

Dancing with my Husband

Every morning at some point, my husband comes to me and wants to dance (usually some corny ballroom thing but dancing nonetheless). Of course this attempt to dance with me is always when I've overslept by 1/2 hour, running around like a fool, trying to get the dogs outside, my contact lenses are acting crazy, my hair is a mess AND I can't fit anything in my closet so needless to say, I'm not usually the best dance partner.

But the other day it hit me. This is a special time and although I might be late for work, I SHOULD take the time to be a more willing dance partner. I remember a time where we barely spoke with each other in the AM (or hell, in the PM for that matter!) and I should not take this lightly. I should see it as our time together, and no matter what else is going on, if he's taken the time to focus on me, I should return the favor!

Strength, Courage and Wisdom

These days I'm finding myself want to know more about my mother. Could it be that since she's battling colon cancer (last report was optimistic) that this is some sort of morbid "I'd better get all that I can while she's here" knee-jerk reaction? I dunno.

All I know is that I now view my mother in a TOTALLY different light. She's been through major surgery, undergoing chemo therapy treatments and has not complained once. When you call her, she's upbeat and always cracking jokes.

What I'm learning about my mother is that she is the strongest, most courageous, wisest person I know. Often I find myself saying one of her sayings that I realize now were so full of wisdom:

1. If you lie, you'll steal - my cousin and I used to crack up over this one, but now we use this line ourselves!
   
2. only thing open after 12:00 is legs - this was always said after some boy/man I was dating wanted to pick me up late)
3. always have escape money - this is money that you take on a date in case he ditches you and you need to get home on your own
4. always believe someone when they show you who they are

She has a whole host of others, I think I'll get with friends/family and gather them all. She's such a strong, courageous, wise person and I regret that I spent so much time being angry at who she wasn't, that its not until now that I appreciate who she is.

Turning 40 in exactly 17 days!

Turning 40!
There are some things about turning 40 that are bothering me:

1. not having a home
2. not having a child
3. still feel like I'm not doing the work I want to do

There are some things about turning 40 that are not bothering me:

1. I still look good (atleast I think so, whoever disagrees, too bad so sad)
2. Working on getting my weight under control
3. Making major moves in terms of living somewhere that I'm happy with

I think most of all if I'm honest, what's bothering me is the fact that me turning 40 doesn't seem like a big deal to anyone but me! I don't know what I expect: a parade, jugglers, a trip around the world, WHO KNOWS!! But when I mention it to folks (mostly my family) "OMG, I'm going to be 40 in ____ days". Its sorta met with "ok".

My cousin (who is also turning 40 this year) is making this scrapbook of all the people in her life who have had an impact. While I though about doing something like this, I DON'T SCRAP and this is way to monumental an occassion to jack up.

Maybe I'll just sleep my 40th birthday away so that if it doesn't meet my expectations (which I'm not sure what they are at this point) I won't be disappointed. Maybe I should work on defining my expectations and verbalizing them so if they're not met, its not because I didn't say what I wanted. Is that part of turning 40, saying what you want and expecting it???

No Title Needed

Its been 3 months since my last post, SO much has gone on...

1. Went home last month and packed up our place in NY for the official move to SC! It is scary and exciting at the same time. Although we've always had visions of moving south, I never thought it would be so soon with all that we had going on at home. I guess God had other plans!
2. We officially joined the church we have been attending here in SC (www.valleybrookoutreach.org). We really love this church, they really love the Lord, the Pastor and congregation is VERY supportive and although its a big church by Albany standards (about 1000 members) its still small enough that you don't feel lost. There are some wonderful and exciting things going on at this church and I am so honored that God though enough of us to have us be part!
3. My mother has completed 3 chemotherapy treatments and so far, no major issues! God is so awesome and I'm still trusting Him for her healing. Shes been a trooper through this whole thing, at 72, I hope I have 1/2 the strength she has.
4. All my friends are in some form of transition. Either spiritually, professionally or personally. I know that God is up to something big.
5. My nephew passed to GA real estate exam with flying colors! He's so smart and when he really puts his mind to things, nothing is impossible for him.
6. My sister had her thyroid removed in October. She was diagnosed with Grave's Disease over a year ago and they just could not get her thyroid under control. I'm believing God for her healing also.

There are so many other things going on, some of which since they are in their infancy stage, I am not willing to reveal. 2008 is going to be such a TREMENDOUS year, I can't wait!

So Many Changes

So many things are changing these days, its hard to keep up!

1. My husband is here with me in Greenville and after us living in seperate places for a year we're having to get re-acquainted with each others. Morning routines, nighttime rituals, quiet time, remote control (its should be remote control "control"), me not eating cereal for dinner, dog walking, the list goes on and on. I can say that I am SO happy he's here though, I didn't realize how much I missed him.
2. Friends moving - a friend of my cousin is moving MANY miles away!! Although I've only known here through my cousin over the past maybe 15 years, she is such a great person and a good BF to my cousin. I KONW its going to be a huge adjustment for both of them.
3. My cousin has a new man who makes her VERY happy! I think there's wedding bells in the air but she's trying to not freak me out so she's trying to be cool about it! I love how happy she sounds when I call her and how excited she is when she's going to see him.
4. I'm transitioning - we are seriously considering a move to SC which would mean new church, new chapter in our lives and walk with God and new church family. That's a whole blog unto itself.
5. Friendships - many are falling by the wayside, old ones are being renewed, others are being changed.
6. LAst but not least - my relationship with God. I've had to learn to trust Him in some PRETTY major ways over the past few months and He has shown me how TRULY faithful He is and how much He loves me. He's preparing me for something big!

I wonder if anyone else feels the change!!!